Surely I have lived outside my heart

With every step I take, my past comes closer. An ocean of lies, confusion, emptiness and false love and there I am; drowning. With every new beginning, I realize previous occurances have had no end. I am a spider stuck in my gigantic web. Sunshine keeps running away, the darkness is bright. I long for the embrace of truth. The embrace of breath-taking passion. I long for... Your embrace. One I never had. One I will never have. Oh, faith. Oh faith, have mercy. Oh mercy, save me. Save what is left of me. I will laugh again. As will I love. Both of which, in your eyes and not my reality. Our worlds are far apart. Please, leave me.